Last year after coming back from Korea, I thought this year would be fun as I would meet a lot of friends. But till the day before the Christmas Eve, we still got no any plan for Christmas ,so I thought it might be still the same as the previous years...
Fortunately, we came out with plans on Christmas Eve...after going to K room with my sister.
It was a fun night , it was literally my first time doing those things till mid night. We went to a pub, they drink beer, we play games...
Thank you for making it an unforgettable day for me.
Appreciate.
화요일, 10월 27, 2015
Sem 2
Semester 2 .. many things happened.
unhappy things.
My mental problem getting more serious but at the same time getting better.
I didn't know which percentage is higher but.. ya.. I hope I can do better day by day.
Friendship problem...
There was moment when we getting further and further away ....and I didn't try to make it back like previously.
because......
actually nothing is wrong..
I was just... did not wanna... listen to some of the sentences I dislike to listen.
It's so frustrating .
I know, nobody born to impress me, but ..I didn't born to impress you too.
So.. why did I need to bear the attitude?
화요일, 9월 29, 2015
Why I needa face these...
What made me sad was....
I typed quite alot of words in my text and replied him...
he replied me 'oh i see haha '
I know that text has got nothing for others to reply... but that replied message was making people upset.
Next ,was friendship problem. Skyping with each other discussing work, after 5 sentences sure something irrelevant pop up. Then they started to talk about that...
This really did make me mad. They should talk about those after we finishing our discussion work.
There's plenty of work to submit tomorrow... stop procrastinating .
Somemore....there's some friends who already do not understand what I meant and felt.
This is really frustrating. I said 1 she will be like forever thinking that Im actually talking about 2...
Then after this situation, another one will start to ask us stop arguing . The problem is we are not even arguing. ==
duhhh
I'm kind of fed up of this uni life.......
I typed quite alot of words in my text and replied him...
he replied me 'oh i see haha '
I know that text has got nothing for others to reply... but that replied message was making people upset.
Next ,was friendship problem. Skyping with each other discussing work, after 5 sentences sure something irrelevant pop up. Then they started to talk about that...
This really did make me mad. They should talk about those after we finishing our discussion work.
There's plenty of work to submit tomorrow... stop procrastinating .
Somemore....there's some friends who already do not understand what I meant and felt.
This is really frustrating. I said 1 she will be like forever thinking that Im actually talking about 2...
Then after this situation, another one will start to ask us stop arguing . The problem is we are not even arguing. ==
duhhh
I'm kind of fed up of this uni life.......
토요일, 9월 19, 2015
Deep feelin'
It had been monthsss since I last update my blog.
I didn't know why almost everytime I update, I start off with ' it had been ...... since ...'
But indeed, I 'visit' here occasionally ... not even 'often' ..
I did have lots of thinking.. and I did wanted to visit here often but sometimes just... got not time for me to do so..
or just feeling lazy.
But... I do have the habits of writing diary, calendar.. stuff like that.
So ..maybe I just a little transfer? ~~~~
Alright..well.. it must be something brought me here.
that 's.....
Let's talk.... about it..
About friends around me.
I made some genuinely good friends when I worked at part time job as a helping crew during my sem break.
They're really kind people.
Even though we just met them not long ago..but they're willing to help us out and always be there for us 24/7 ... (still, because I can't predict what will happen in the future..)
So far, they helped me alot, I couldn't remember how many times, just alot.
...on... whatever things they can do ..(e.g. relationship, friendship, assignment, food cravings... )
They are good in comforting people (I think they might not knowing this .. =) ...
They always able to make us laugh...no matter when we're feeling down, sad , emo or even angry...
They also never blame me for what I've done.(I'm not sure whether they blame me without me knowing it..... keke)
For instant, I used to hoping to find someone who can accompany me when I couldn't sleep at night... fortunately one or two of them always online when I need someone, then we started our conversation.... till late night... or even till morning...
The next day, not blaming but heart warming text will come first... :'）
Another thing was...whenever I found something odd , or anything bad or sad happened.
After telling them, they will start to find out solution....
They're really kind and great listeners. Each one of them... :)
And.... my seniors...
Some of them are kind, ya... so far.. I can see only 'some' ..
I'm not sure... since I didn't really mix around with seniors.. but it's not like I dislike them or bla..
I'm just not so ...fangirl them.. lol
okay..
so... one of my senior is really kind too..
Even when my closest friend didn't care about how am I doing...he did contact me..
Comforted me , saying that after recovering , let's go to watch movie, let's go hunt for food...
It's unbelievable, at first. Since I'm really.. not so close with them...
But yay, thanks :) at least I smiled after reading at their messages when I feeling extremely boring and helpless ...
What a group of warm hearted guys.
Thank God for letting me having them as friends.
So far, I still can't imagine life without them. （haha, maybe a little exaggerate..)
It will be boring, helpless... (this is truth)
I hope only good things will happen on them and happiness surround them always.
I sincerely wish they will have great future ahead.... =)
I didn't know why almost everytime I update, I start off with ' it had been ...... since ...'
But indeed, I 'visit' here occasionally ... not even 'often' ..
I did have lots of thinking.. and I did wanted to visit here often but sometimes just... got not time for me to do so..
or just feeling lazy.
But... I do have the habits of writing diary, calendar.. stuff like that.
So ..maybe I just a little transfer? ~~~~
Alright..well.. it must be something brought me here.
that 's.....
Let's talk.... about it..
About friends around me.
I made some genuinely good friends when I worked at part time job as a helping crew during my sem break.
They're really kind people.
Even though we just met them not long ago..but they're willing to help us out and always be there for us 24/7 ... (still, because I can't predict what will happen in the future..)
So far, they helped me alot, I couldn't remember how many times, just alot.
...on... whatever things they can do ..(e.g. relationship, friendship, assignment, food cravings... )
They are good in comforting people (I think they might not knowing this .. =) ...
They always able to make us laugh...no matter when we're feeling down, sad , emo or even angry...
They also never blame me for what I've done.(I'm not sure whether they blame me without me knowing it..... keke)
For instant, I used to hoping to find someone who can accompany me when I couldn't sleep at night... fortunately one or two of them always online when I need someone, then we started our conversation.... till late night... or even till morning...
The next day, not blaming but heart warming text will come first... :'）
Another thing was...whenever I found something odd , or anything bad or sad happened.
After telling them, they will start to find out solution....
They're really kind and great listeners. Each one of them... :)
And.... my seniors...
Some of them are kind, ya... so far.. I can see only 'some' ..
I'm not sure... since I didn't really mix around with seniors.. but it's not like I dislike them or bla..
I'm just not so ...fangirl them.. lol
okay..
so... one of my senior is really kind too..
Even when my closest friend didn't care about how am I doing...he did contact me..
Comforted me , saying that after recovering , let's go to watch movie, let's go hunt for food...
It's unbelievable, at first. Since I'm really.. not so close with them...
But yay, thanks :) at least I smiled after reading at their messages when I feeling extremely boring and helpless ...
What a group of warm hearted guys.
Thank God for letting me having them as friends.
So far, I still can't imagine life without them. （haha, maybe a little exaggerate..)
It will be boring, helpless... (this is truth)
I hope only good things will happen on them and happiness surround them always.
I sincerely wish they will have great future ahead.... =)
수요일, 2월 25, 2015
I stated that I hope I can fill my new life with happiness.
But here comes the obstacle after starting university life for a month.
Feel like changing course...
why?
Even though my parents will support me whatever I've chosen , but from what my dad saw during these 2 months.. he asked me some questions during the second day of Cny.
'Is it what you wanna do after trying it a month? '
'Don't you feel lifeless and what they asked you to do were like what I did during primary school time? '
'Do you know that your future will be really busy if there's project? '
'Do you know where do you get money from if you dont get a project? '
I really don't know.
I just followed my heart and choose what I liked.
I don't really care about those as I believe that if it's the thing that I like, even though it's extremely hard, I will enjoy it for sure and I won't be regret.
But it's not mean that I think my dad is wrong. I understood what he was trying to say, and I knew it's for my own good.
So, after listening to him, I did lots of thinking....
I asked cousins, relatives, friends that should I change my course...?
I can't just think about my dream, my hobby,.. I should think of my dad, who always by my side and support me. I can't make him feel disappointed.
I can't be so selfish.
Future and Dream. which one do you choose if you've the chance?
But here comes the obstacle after starting university life for a month.
Feel like changing course...
why?
Even though my parents will support me whatever I've chosen , but from what my dad saw during these 2 months.. he asked me some questions during the second day of Cny.
'Is it what you wanna do after trying it a month? '
'Don't you feel lifeless and what they asked you to do were like what I did during primary school time? '
'Do you know that your future will be really busy if there's project? '
'Do you know where do you get money from if you dont get a project? '
I really don't know.
I just followed my heart and choose what I liked.
I don't really care about those as I believe that if it's the thing that I like, even though it's extremely hard, I will enjoy it for sure and I won't be regret.
But it's not mean that I think my dad is wrong. I understood what he was trying to say, and I knew it's for my own good.
So, after listening to him, I did lots of thinking....
I asked cousins, relatives, friends that should I change my course...?
I can't just think about my dream, my hobby,.. I should think of my dad, who always by my side and support me. I can't make him feel disappointed.
I can't be so selfish.
Future and Dream. which one do you choose if you've the chance?
수요일, 1월 28, 2015
New chapter of life!
Finally ,my new chapter of life .
I need to fill in my blank pages with happiness.
And I believed that I can do it.
I have been waiting for the arrival of the day.
But when the day comes, I got really nervous and worried.
First day was kinda scary as I still dont know anyone of them.
Second day , it was day for campus hunt.
I made quite lots of friends on that day as I was not afraid anymore.
I was doing everything alone ... I'm so glad that I did it. Since I was so worried that I'm not able to stay alone .
Class started, it was fun to learn sketching in a design studio.
It's like my dream came true.
So far so good... Everything goes smooth.
I'm so lucky that I met nice people and lecturers.
Drive to university is my goal now. Gonna practise more after my lisence done.
After knowing some friends who drive to school... Started asking friend to fetch me when no one couldn't make it.
Feel bad and sorry as I don't wanna give tiehrs trouble....
Most of my friends draw very well as they were art students. Come on.. I'm from pure science...
Well.. I never learn sketching. It's just my hobby ....
I hope I'm not the weakest in the class.....
I knew some of them were from pure science too... But they still did well. Cool.
After going to university, the optimistic side of mine appears and the negative side of mine no longer appear . That's why I used to say I love busy life and I do not enjoy lifeless life.
Tiny conclusion
I just wanna have new friends of mine.. I need to be socialize.. lol
수요일, 1월 07, 2015
shock!
While I was typing the previous blog -Relief , I heard 'boooom! ' sound coming from the ceiling above my head.
Following by the small white pieces of broken plaster ceiling.
It dropped on my head and fell like snow.
Even my laptop all most turned into white.
I was so shocked! I thought Im going to die.....
I shouted very loud with my hands closing my ears. I ran to the living hall .(my own reaction)
My face blanched. And so did my parents and sisters.
I never shout this loud I think...It's really scary.
We slept in my parent's room and I was still very afraid of dreaming about scary stuff.
Following by the small white pieces of broken plaster ceiling.
It dropped on my head and fell like snow.
Even my laptop all most turned into white.
I was so shocked! I thought Im going to die.....
I shouted very loud with my hands closing my ears. I ran to the living hall .(my own reaction)
My face blanched. And so did my parents and sisters.
I never shout this loud I think...It's really scary.
We slept in my parent's room and I was still very afraid of dreaming about scary stuff.
Relief
Because of One tiny stuff, (kinda) huge argument occurred between me and my sis .
Well. nothing much to say in detail about that . that's over.
Sitting in the area infront of the house... mum and dad were sitting there listening to my story.
(I don't wanna talk much about it here )
They both gave opinions on what I've told, and taught me how to become stronger .
My dad didn't scold me even though I talked in the 'stupid' way...
which means talking and crying both doing at the same time...
why did I felt this? because last time when I was younger, he did scold me when I complained and cried ,both doing at the same time.
Last time, he scolded about anything that he thought was wrong.
I felt that my dad changed alot since I came back from Korea, the way he talk and express ...
Maybe it's because all of us are 'big' enough, we're grown..
I'm so glad that both of them listened to me till the end.
It's my first time talking that much about of my feeling infront of both of them.
Since I used to tell my mum , only. I told my mum everything about what I felt and worried.
It's good to have both of them sitting by my side listening to me.
Thank God for giving me both of them..who standing by my side always.
After talking with them, I only realized that, ........ (forgive me for not sharing)
I'll try to become stronger...
Thanks my mama n papa.
Well. nothing much to say in detail about that . that's over.
Sitting in the area infront of the house... mum and dad were sitting there listening to my story.
(I don't wanna talk much about it here )
They both gave opinions on what I've told, and taught me how to become stronger .
My dad didn't scold me even though I talked in the 'stupid' way...
which means talking and crying both doing at the same time...
why did I felt this? because last time when I was younger, he did scold me when I complained and cried ,both doing at the same time.
Last time, he scolded about anything that he thought was wrong.
I felt that my dad changed alot since I came back from Korea, the way he talk and express ...
Maybe it's because all of us are 'big' enough, we're grown..
I'm so glad that both of them listened to me till the end.
It's my first time talking that much about of my feeling infront of both of them.
Since I used to tell my mum , only. I told my mum everything about what I felt and worried.
It's good to have both of them sitting by my side listening to me.
Thank God for giving me both of them..who standing by my side always.
After talking with them, I only realized that, ........ (forgive me for not sharing)
I'll try to become stronger...
Thanks my mama n papa.
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