Just received a call from the agent who are helping me out on my further studies.
After telling my parents , my daddy didn't seem happy.
He was worried about the transport problem and so on. Then, started to ''splash me with cold water'' ... (abit? )
Yes, I know it might be a big problem, since the institute that I wish to enter , is quite far from my aunt's house and every morning there'll be really heavy traffic, and yet, I haven't got a license ...
Yes, a ***king driving license (for me) .
After going back to my room, I just felt very disappointed and sad and angry.
I thought, why I'm facing so much problems? Why when there's course that I like, many problems appeared? What should I do?? As you said, you wanted me to have no problem with the transport, should I find those university only in that particular area but not the course that I like?
I was so disappointed and couldn't control my anger. and even my tears.
I cried....and cried....
sending mummy lots of message, hoping that someone could comfort me and give me positive energy.
about 15 mins later, she replied , she asked me to calm down, take a deep breath.
After following what she asked me to do, I told her that I wish she could come into my room.
Then, she came and I cried much more louder than before.
Cried until the sides of my eyes shivered, my hands shivered, my legs shivered. I hugged my mama as tide as possible because I was panic abit and couldn't breath as I cried too hard.
I had water, and calm myself down.
Then we started to sit on the bed and discuss with the help of internet.
She explained to me everything, she comforted me, she told me what to ask the agent, she taught me the options , she said we'll be going to visit those universities that I'm interested in , asked me not to worry .
I felt that Im feeling alive again after her words.
She gave me strength to stay strong.
Thanks , mummy.
I don't know what I will be without you.
