Today's Diary

It's a very cold....and silent night...

What I can hear... is just my crying voice and breathing sound.

My heart is totally breaking... had been long time I didn't cried this hard... until my lungs are painful..

I'm so disappointed w/ them ,,,

Is this the disadvantage being the youngest in the house? 

Everyone were all blaming complaning grumbling ...never think about my feeling at all..

Do you guys think.... the youngest have to bear all those things? 

I'm that kind of person... I won't admit if I didnt do anything wrong and I won't keep quiet if you're wrong.

So,

You're selfish! not me... I can be considerate .

But once I do sacrifice , who else care about it? 

If I had made a firm resolution , I won't change my mind and hate to change it! 

but I don't know why I always been forced to sacrifice my thing...Is that call selfish?? ask yourself.

My Holiday

It was a very first time, I joined form 3 friends to the trip -Legoland + Melaka.
Everyone was pretty shocked when they knew I'm joining the form 3 gang. 
Come On... I'm so friendly and there's my friends everywhere~ ( just kidding... exactly not)
Didn't know much.. and didn't think much.... I just felt like going to Legoland to have a look ..so I decided to go no matter what.
Pretty morning 3:30am ... woke up and get ready to take off from Tanjung Malim. Stayed in friend's grandma house...
At first, I was really worried and afraid... that moment...I thought... Do I have the chance to come back once I get into the bus? Not really good feeling...
The bus was Bas Sekolah ; the driver looks like a drunkard, seriously ; It was 4am , he might feel sleepy...
It's Johor, Johor... it's too far... 7 hours expected time for the journey... I felt uneasy... and started to think bundle of things... this and that....I know I worry too much...
Fortunately.. Thank God... It's a safe & beautiful journey...
Here,I'll make a brief schedule .
Day 1
Tm --> Legoland --> Hotel --> Sutera Mall --> Hotel
Day 2
Hotel --> Melaka --> Tm
a very simple and uncomplicated schedule...
Actually, It's quite boring trip for me..
But I 'm very pleased w/ my photograph ..and satisfied...
The moment when people like the photos that you took and thank you so much for those pretty photos.... I felt.. everything is worth ..enough... even though im not pro in it...and those are not really good photos... 
Capture down every particular moment... so it can help us keep our memories ... 
When you look back at those photos, I'll feel appreciate ...
Benefits of being a photographer ... I won't have ugly photos ...haha
It's benefits for me.. because I don't like others to take my photos... as you know, surely I'll non stop complaining ... Maybe for someone..it's not benefits.. should be disadvantage... 

Time to share...

The scary news.

It's Sunday again...Tomorrow is Monday,,again..

But there's good news! Tomorrow is Holiday .lalala

3rd Aug (Fri) , after I went back home.. it's almost 3pm.

I thought it's like normal day..I should rush for 4:30pm bus,,tuition til night.

but...once I stepped into dining room, mom told me that bro in hospital.

I was really shocked. what had happened?!

We rushed to KL that day...

luckily my bro is okay.. and everything went well and smoothly ... 

the next day we waited for 2hrs30mins  for the discharge... 

I spent my time on the bed... (in the ward) ..playing fb, youtube.. lol

the hospital looks like hotel. it's really nice.. but I don't want to spend more time over there. xD

Seriously it was my first time lying on a patient's bed in the ward. 

1 week, 10 days

How I wish there are 10 days per week.

So I got enough time to do my things.

So I can manage to arrange my tuition time table very well.

So I have enough time to prepare everything.

So I won't rush for everything.

7 days really not enough for me...

I cannot manage my timetable well ... it's August now.. ==

8 months ..I bear for 8 months... 

Not enough time is always my problem to face.

Maybe... one day... I will stop everything and stay at home ..these 7 days. 

Thank you

Thank you for believing in me when I found it difficult to believe in myself... for saying what I've needed to hear sometimes, instead of what I've wanted to hear.... for siding with me.... and for giving me another side to consider. Thank you for opening yourself up to me.... for trusting me with your thoughts and disappointments and dreams.... for knowing you can depend on me and for asking my help when you've needed it. Thank you for putting so much thought and care and imagination into our friendship... for sharing so many nice times and making so many special memories with me. Thank you for always being honest with me... being kind to me... being there for me. Thank you for being a friend to me in so many meaningful ways. Thank you for making so much jokes and fun always, make me smile and make me laugh. Thank you for caring of me so much ,asked me why I was sick and taking care for me. I love my Friends. Thanks.

Life as A Cake

A little boy is telling his Grandma how everything is going wrong — school, family problems, severe health problems, etc.
Meanwhile, Grandma is baking a cake. She asks the child if he would like a snack, which of course he does.
"Here. Have some cooking oil."
"Yuck," says the boy.
"How about a couple of raw eggs?"
"Gross, Grandma."
"Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?"
"Grandma, those are all yucky!"
To which the Grandma replies: "Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake!
Author Unknown

Many times we wonder why God would let us go through such difficult times.

But, when He puts everything in His order, they always work for good.

We just have to trust Him: for he will make something wonderful!

This is a meaningful short story

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: "Daddy, may I ask you a question?"

DAD: "Yeah sure, what is it?" replied the man.

SON: "Daddy, how much do you make an hour?"

DAD: "That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?" the man said angrily.

SON: "I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?"

DAD: "If you must know, I make RM100 an hour."

SON: "Oh," the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: "Daddy, may I please borrow RM50?"
The father was furious, "If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I work hard everyday for such this childish behavior."

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.

The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down, and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that RM50 and he really didn't ask for money very often. The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

"Are you asleep, son?" He asked.

"No daddy, I'm awake," replied the boy.

"I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier" said the man.

"It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the RM50 you asked for."

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. "Oh, thank you daddy!" He yelled.

Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again. The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

"Why do you want more money if you already have some?" the father grumbled.

"Because I didn't have enough, but now I do," the little boy replied.

"Daddy, I have RM100 now. Can I buy an hour of your time?
Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you."
The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.



It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts.

Do remember to share that RM.100 worth of your time with someone you love.

If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily Replace us in a matter of days.

But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives. And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than to our family.

My criteria of my life partner

About my criteria of my life partner ..uh huh...

You must be curious why this kind of heading will appear in my blog.

Well, this is because, my teacher,Pn Sharifah, she called us to do a English Brochure with the headings, 

i ) My Interesting Characteristics.

ii ) My Criteria of my life partner.

iii ) The benefits of being my friends.

So...that's why...

Hmm... 

About life partner...

I didn't really think about it before...

Just quite of the time my friends asked me to share about this..

iii) 

First, he must be taller than me and elder than me. 

He must have a pair of attractive smiling eyes. He must be not a doctor, actually yea... I don't like my future husband is a doctor... why? hmm... maybe... he won't have much free time to spend at home or with me.. 

Moreover, he likes photography and dogs, just like me. because, we can capture many photos of us as memories...and I like to keep many photos albums ..also, we can bring our dogs for a walk everyday. He's not a sensitive person and don't like to tell jokes, according to this statement.. I don't like someone that tell too much jokes as I will take it as not serious, I won't know when he is serious and when is trying to make jokes. Most important is I hate it when someone tell jokes when I am sad or angry.  Next, he is a cold and ardent person , responsible and charming person. He cares and understand me, can cheer me up and make me smile when I'm upset. According to cold and ardent person, he's like...being nice with me but quite cool to others...but still friendly of course, I just don't like over friendly person. Lastly, he must know what I like and dislike. 

I think.. that's all for this heading... 

That's all in my mind in this particular time. 

Maybe in the future I will change my mind..I can't make sure about this.

Will continue ii) and i) soon.. 

A small diary

Alright ..yep.. I'm here today.. 


Yesterday I heard my friend told me that... bla~
And I told dad n mummy as well.
They taught me not to be so silly.
So, regarding what my parents had told me, start from now I should try my best to..
Mind only my own business.
Compare only with myself.
Be confident, as... we are good enough.
Don't care about what others thinking, keep eyes out of others.
And
We have to thank what God had gave us and more in the future.
I hope I really can ignore someone and don't care what other's thinking...that can made me in a bad mood.
I should be myself .Mind only my own business.


Alright, sleep well =) 
Good Nights. 

Yesterday night.

Yesterday night, I had met my old friends... ♥

At first, I don't feel like attending to this party... because I worried that we have nothing to say once we meet each other.

Fortunately, they are still .... 38 ...as last time.. xD

We drank tea, and went to Serene's house..

Snap snap snap! PhotosS! Party time =D

We laughed alot, drink alot, talked alot! ♥

Thank you so much ... for... making so much fun ♥

12:30am only reached home.. this was my first time... being like this... stayed in friend's house until late night.. 

everyone were so tired and sleepy ... xD 

but still non stop taking photos. 

Here are some photos =D ♥

 with Serene 

 With KarShi

 with Bingsley

With Kenny 

Meanigful story.. Please Love your parents. =)

A long time ago, there was a huge apple tree.
A little boy loved to come and play around it everyday.
He climbed to the treetop, ate the apples, took a nap under the shadow...


He loved the tree and the tree loved to play with him.
Time went by...the little boy had grown up,
And he no longer played around the tree every day.


One day, the boy came back to the tree and he looked sad.
"Come and play with me,” the tree asked the boy.
"I am no longer a kid, I do not play around trees any more"
The boy replied.
"I want toys. I need money to buy them."
"Sorry, but I do not have money...
But you can pick all my apples and sell them.
So, you will have money.
" The boy was so excited.
He grabbed all the apples on the tree and left happily.
The boy never came back after he picked the apples.
The tree was sad.


One day, the boy who now turned into a man returned
And the tree was excited "Come and play with me" the tree said.
"I do not have time to play. I have to work for my family.
We need a house for shelter.
Can you help me?
" Sorry”,
I do not have any house. But you can chop off my branches
To build your house.
" So the man cut all the branches of the tree and left happily.
The tree was glad to see him happy but the man never came back since then.
The tree was again lonely and sad.


One hot summer day,
The man returned and the tree was delighted.
"Come and play with me!" the tree said.
"I am getting old. I want to go sailing to relax myself.
“Can you give me a boat?"
“Said the man”.
"Use my trunk to build your boat.
You can sail far away and be happy.
" So the man cut the tree trunk to make a boat.
He went sailing and never showed up for a long time.


Finally, the man returned after many years.
"Sorry, my boy. But I do not have anything for you anymore.
No more apples for you...
" The tree said”.
"No problem, I do not have any teeth to bite
" The man replied.
"No more trunk for you to climb on"
"I am too old for that now" the man said.
"I really cannot give you anything...
The only thing left is my dying root,”
The tree said with tears.
"I do not need much now, just a place to rest.
I am tired after all these years" the man replied.
"Good! Old tree roots are the best place to lean on and rest,
Come, come sit down with me and rest.
" The man sat down and the tree was glad and smiled with tears...
This is you and the tree is your parent. !!!!!

Please Love your parents.  =') 

Mr.H is coming to town

Hey! What's up! My blog.. Long time no see..

Yeah... Mid-year examination just came to the end.

Worn-out... huuu

burn midnight oil..almost everyday...

My friends noticed my panda eyes grow darker ~~~ @@

I don't care-e-e-e-e..xD  lalalala....

hmm.... but...i started to feel boring ..xD 

Mr.H haven't come yet.. I felt boring already?! 

Which drama should I watch first?

I love it when I was lying on my bed and listening A Thousand Years with headphone, and in my room temperature 18'c... =DD enjoy~~ 

Congratulation to myself...because ... I had gave alot of effort on this exam... 

and I hope final year examination I can do better and please.. work harder Felicia. =D

Since I am student of MES.

Since 10th of Jan, I am one of the student in MES!

I am not student of DZ anymore...

I had used to it..and I had adapted to the environment there...

I am Happy and enjoy the school life there...

fortunately.. haha

I was so worried that I cant adapt the environment...

I know some new friends there.. They are so kind and friendly..

They helped me a lot... really thanks them so much =)

hmm..some of the teachers are fierce ~ xD scary...

Our BM teacher is so funny and cute sometimes!

She was a wartawan last time... she told us about her history ... xDD so funny~

Yeah... the truth ... it's a lot of homework and stress...

The First class are so intelligent as I can't fight with them..haha..but nevermind... xD

Rest assured...I am happy over there and I didn't regret against my choice..I know my choice is correct..

Diary OF 11th Jan,2012

As usual, I woke up very early in the morning. Having taken my bath, my dad had already prepared my breakfast. Today i had two half boiled eggs,bacon and sausages. It was very tasty because maybe I was very hungry.

When I reached school, the sky was still dark and I felt some cool wind blowing softly along my face, my hair became messy... I knew at once Chinese New year is around the corner,only during this season that we can feel this cooling breeze. As I walked along the corridor I saw only a few early birds standing near the basketball court.

When the bell rang at about 7:15am, everybody began to line up accordingly to their classes. Then we began to sing the National Anthem -Negaraku. After some of the teachers had given their speeches, everybody sang the school song which I haven't learn yet.