Everything become so meaningless..

I can't describe this is early morning ...
I finished prepared and walked out from my room ...
I just on my laptop and planned to sit there for a whole day ...
It's just the second question I've ask in the morning ...
You said I'm so noisy asking all the silly questions...
I was totally shocked listening to those words coming from your mouth....
It's just my second question of the day! ...can't...can't... you just answered me and keep quiet?

Ahh, this is how you think about me all the day...all the time... ? 
You've bear it for so long until you couldn't bear anymore? 
One word... Fine.. 
I'm totally fed up with those words describing me...
Im so tired to know how you think about me all the time.. 
I didn't wanna know that anymore..
That will only make me feel annoying...
Why can't we just sit down and chat like what normal people did? 
I just hope to be like that... 
Please don't give any comment about my personality.. 
If not.. it's gonna be like what we did in the morning...forever... 
We'll end up not chatting with each other... or even not sitting with each other....
I wonder... did you really want this to happen ? 

It's February... I'm gonna leave here on March...
Why not you just bear ... and control what you wanna say? 
I'm tired of arguing ....always...
I didnt want this to happen but you always started it... 
Should I leave here happily and not even miss you guys? 
Did you wanted me to leave quickly? 
Is this what you wanted from me? 
You wanted me end up to be like that? 

During the 2 weeks to 3 weeks time in aunt's house..
Almost every night.. I think about it... 
What will happen after I leave here...?
What will you feel?
What will you do after this? 
Who's the one you can argue with ?... 
Who's the one who accompany you to do medical check up as our business still need someone to take care of..? 
Who's the one will walk beside you when you walk the dogs? 
Who will be the one who accompany you to eat supper when you feel hungry? 
...How if I started to miss home? ... 
Almost every night ..I fell asleep with tears after thinking all of these... 
I hope you'll not know this forever... 
that's what I always worry about..
I wonder did you think about that before? ...or not even once? .... 
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